Friday, September 13, 2013

Emotional lows

Sometimes things happen in life, just that that, without warning mostly, sometimes with a long warning. Our life goes helter skelter. We sink into a bottomless pit. We think we will never recover. We think all the courage is lost on us. All negative thoughts permeate us and eat us alive.
I've been close to that point - this Jan. But today, I found out something strange. An acquaintance probably had a divorce and was reconstructing her life. She had to shift to new grounds, erase a lot of the past and do lots. I can't imagine how terrible it must have been for her. If you're on good terms with your in-laws and it's the spouse who is an issue, what do you do? What abt the children, if any?

Death, divorce, etc are not easy things. They can spiral your life out of control. Sometimes it takes the bravest of brave to recover. Somehow I was googling JK Rowling today. I remember reading that she was a single mother, on goverment money and was suicidal. She probably hit rock bottom. She must have written as if her entire life depended on it (it actually did). Many of us, take things lightly. We think - I want to do X and Y. But we hardly strategise, plan and execute X and Y. Our laziness overcomes us. We give 10 reasons why it could not be done (our mind is great at giving excuses). We then say that X and Y are not fit to be executed, it was only on a whim that we wanted to do it. End of matter. In fact, we could have accomplished X and Y and discovered something new. But we did not let that happen. If our entire existence depended on it, we'd have done a terrific job on it.

I know of another single mother. She was suicidal too. Today, she has picked herself up and is doing really well. Same with one author. She lost her father and that agony probably made her write like crazy. Today she is a "published", bestselling author! 

I am now back to myself. I do get distracted in my study. I have a couple of things I am looking into. Somehow I am not getting a foothold. I think I should go out.. meet someone and discuss and track my progress. Both of us without jobs, is a dangerous situation. We'll soon run out of money. That's a scary thought. I have no medical insurance now. Any medical situation will mean a pitiable state for us. For both of us, we want to achieve something. I need to:

Focus, narrow down my studies to limited things. Don't get distracted or jump links like monkeys.
Persevere - do not give up or settle for anything less.
Progress each day and track progress.
Act on the ideas.
Achieve. There is no way you cannot succeed this time. There's only so many times one is allowed to fail :-)

“The song that I came to SING remains UNSUNG to this day.
I have spent my days in stringing and unstringing my instrument.
The time has not come true. The words have not been rightly set.
Only there is the AGONY of WISHING in my heart.”

Rabindranath Tagore

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