Saturday, February 1, 2014

Transformation

We don't go from caterpillar to butterfly in a day.. it takes time.
(Generously quoting sugar from http://therumpus.net/2012/02/dear-sugar-the-rumpus-advice-column-96-the-dark-cocoon/)
Transformation isn’t a butterfly. It's not a fancy makeover at a Chanel outlet with glamorous lights and clothes.
It’s the thing before you get to be a pretty bug flying away.
It’s huddling in the dark cocoon and then pushing your way out.
It's those dark (k)nights when there is no light at the end of the tunnel.
It's those heartaches and tears.
It's those days when life appears meaningless despite its magnificence.
It's those days when you totally lose sight of the great and wonderful person you are and fancy yourself to be either a loser or a vampire.
It's those days when all your values and morality gets misplaced and useless.
It's those days when you would rare to kill people who hurt you.
It's those days when you would consider harming the people you so dearly love.
It's those days when no longer want to own yourself.
It's those days when looking into the mirror is scarier than getting into a guillotine.
It's those days when you fancy Hitler and the British who brutally murdered innocent people.
It's those days when you go on a rampage and eat all you can.
It's those days when you do all the things, you'd never even dream of doing on better days.

It's that bad.. things are that bad. That's when transformation begins.
Once you give yourself time and your cool self kicks in...you introspect. 
The reality could dawn immediately or over a period. You read self-help books and watch romcoms.
You are a pain to hang out with.

Sometimes the process takes long.
If you're persistent and rational and find the root cause of your pain and address it, you'll be rewarded amply.
You get a better and improved and stronger version of yourself. This is the best version of yourself so far. This version is better equipped than the old to deal with the world and its ironies and idiosyncracies.

But, this will not last forever. I'm sorry to break that news.
This will last till the next pain comes chasing you :-)

When that happens.. you go through the same phases again..
but remember this blueprint. It's useful. You can be assured that you will emerge victorious - it's just a matter of time and that version will be even more powerful than this version.









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