I confess to being a little bit of a Shiva devotee. Shiva happens to be Sadhguru's muse and is the Adiyogi. So, this Mahashivarathri I stayed up till 5 am and no migraines the next day! Surprise surprise.. And I decided that enough is enough. I've damaged myself enough and I donno if it can be fixed this lifetime. I have no clue when it started, etc. But I know that I have this huge undercurrent of depression. There are days when I am barely functioning. So no 1 on the priority is to debug and fix this issue. Lots of other things can wait...
I think top priority is to not create any more fear and negativity. Every day should be full of positive experiences. When depression sprouts its head, chop it mercilessly. It hasn't helped one bit.
It's far more easy to just "do work", not overthink and progress atleast a mile - than sitting and worrying why we didn't do the ultra marathon. A mile walked in much better than dreaming about doing a marathon and not taking even one step out of bed. A little progress is so valuable.
Everyone installs tricks and habits to chop off the demons and we're not alone. We need to just be smart and install the right tricks for the right demons.
Last 2 days I have got a huge collection of wonderful articles. Something really hit me in the head.
Something shook me out of my slumber and made me realize that let's make some progress atleast and acknowledge when that progress happens.
I read about resistance and how it attacks just about everyone.
I read about homeostatis and comfort zone.
I read a bit about depression.
I read about self doubt and how it kills creativity and passion and sucks your energy.
It's fear in different forms - all fear is fear of death and criticism.. a hyper sensitive ego at work.
I read about deliberate practice and professionals.
Your purpose may change with time.Priorities may change.
I realized how we create comfort coccoons and stay there. When you're in the coccoon you only survive. You do not grow.
The people who excelled - excelled by conquering their fears, not because they were made of a different mould.
People struggle through their lives to find their passion and meaning and I think the obstacles that this journey brings, if cleared properly, will peel off layer after layer of untruth.. When you peel these layers, one fine day, you're left with the truth. The truth is the same for all of us. When we reach that state, our work becomes art. It shines truthfully.It's genuine. Only when we become free of all fears and false beliefs and prejudices - we can truly produce great work.. genuine work. Till then the work is coloured by our fears - our illusions - it smacks of what others want and what you think others want or will appreciate. That's not genuine. You sometimes compromise but you finally do what your heart desires and hope that it goes down well with the world. Else, to hell with the world.
It also made me realize that we set our obstacles. When we conquer them, one thing is taken away from our plate. Maybe the whole concept of time is linked to our attainment of that one state. Then, like the sages say, time either vanishes or whatever...
It’s a lesson Rahman learnt early on in life. “Problem is, people compromise. Until something is not there, people won’t know it is there. So you have to create that wanting.” But getting people to want something they don’t know about isn’t easy. It takes time and patience: “First, you cater to what people need. Once you’ve done that, you compose what you love and believe people will love as well. And you stand by it, even at the risk of being rejected.” And how do you do that? “You can only be what you are. You can only try to maximise what you are. Good-looking or bad-looking, this is my shape; it is there for people to see. There is a beautiful quote that says, ‘I can never change what or how I look. But I can change how the world looks at me.’”
Brian Johnson's philosopher's notes on The war of art and The meaning of life.
http://brianjohnson.me/philosophersnotes/
http://www.copyblogger.com/creativity-killers/
https://www.americanexpress.com/us/small-business/openforum/articles/8-ways-highly-successful-people-overcome-self-doubt/
http://gailbrenner.com/2014/01/is-your-comfort-zone-really-that-comfortable/
http://www.mollygordon.com/overcome-fears-anxiety/maintaining-homeostasis.html
http://www.stevenpressfield.com/2013/11/resistance-and-self-loathing/
http://www.stevenpressfield.com/the-war-of-art/#book-top
http://jamesclear.com/deliberate-practice
http://jamesclear.com/required-for-success
http://jamesclear.com/professionals-and-amateurs
http://forbesindia.com/article/recliner/ar-rahman-and-the-art-of-focus/32584/0
(AR Rahman on focus).
http://www.thehindu.com/features/friday-review/ar-rahman-story-behind-jai-ho/article6937113.ece
It's interesting how he pays attention to every detail.
“The way he amalgamates South Indian sounds with Western classical music is something special. Dholak and pakhawaj sound different in his music. The way he hears the sounds around him is unique.
“Rahman is somewhat like a powerful radio tuned in to different corners of the world. He’s aware of every musician, every recording artist, every trend, every instrument. So when he composes, he draws on this knowledge base and analytical acumen and he also assembles exactly the right team for each piece he creates, down to even such minutiae as getting the right diction for a particular song, the dialect, the flavour,” .
It was also interesting to learn that while travelling he watches films in the silent mode, imagining the soundtrack rather than letting it play.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Y5AoZb4eGQ
(Harsha Bhogle's awesome IIM speech).
and also
https://enjoyingyourkids.wordpress.com/2015/02/26/i-am-lucky-to-be-a-stay-at-home-mom-sahm/
(Who decides which is most worthy and important?)
I also read about some books:
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/10/17/how-tiny-joyful-moments-c_n_4108363.html?ir=India
http://greatergood.berkeley.edu/resources/slide_presentations
I think top priority is to not create any more fear and negativity. Every day should be full of positive experiences. When depression sprouts its head, chop it mercilessly. It hasn't helped one bit.
It's far more easy to just "do work", not overthink and progress atleast a mile - than sitting and worrying why we didn't do the ultra marathon. A mile walked in much better than dreaming about doing a marathon and not taking even one step out of bed. A little progress is so valuable.
Everyone installs tricks and habits to chop off the demons and we're not alone. We need to just be smart and install the right tricks for the right demons.
Last 2 days I have got a huge collection of wonderful articles. Something really hit me in the head.
Something shook me out of my slumber and made me realize that let's make some progress atleast and acknowledge when that progress happens.
I read about resistance and how it attacks just about everyone.
I read about homeostatis and comfort zone.
I read a bit about depression.
I read about self doubt and how it kills creativity and passion and sucks your energy.
It's fear in different forms - all fear is fear of death and criticism.. a hyper sensitive ego at work.
I read about deliberate practice and professionals.
Your purpose may change with time.Priorities may change.
I realized how we create comfort coccoons and stay there. When you're in the coccoon you only survive. You do not grow.
The people who excelled - excelled by conquering their fears, not because they were made of a different mould.
People struggle through their lives to find their passion and meaning and I think the obstacles that this journey brings, if cleared properly, will peel off layer after layer of untruth.. When you peel these layers, one fine day, you're left with the truth. The truth is the same for all of us. When we reach that state, our work becomes art. It shines truthfully.It's genuine. Only when we become free of all fears and false beliefs and prejudices - we can truly produce great work.. genuine work. Till then the work is coloured by our fears - our illusions - it smacks of what others want and what you think others want or will appreciate. That's not genuine. You sometimes compromise but you finally do what your heart desires and hope that it goes down well with the world. Else, to hell with the world.
It also made me realize that we set our obstacles. When we conquer them, one thing is taken away from our plate. Maybe the whole concept of time is linked to our attainment of that one state. Then, like the sages say, time either vanishes or whatever...
It’s a lesson Rahman learnt early on in life. “Problem is, people compromise. Until something is not there, people won’t know it is there. So you have to create that wanting.” But getting people to want something they don’t know about isn’t easy. It takes time and patience: “First, you cater to what people need. Once you’ve done that, you compose what you love and believe people will love as well. And you stand by it, even at the risk of being rejected.” And how do you do that? “You can only be what you are. You can only try to maximise what you are. Good-looking or bad-looking, this is my shape; it is there for people to see. There is a beautiful quote that says, ‘I can never change what or how I look. But I can change how the world looks at me.’”
Brian Johnson's philosopher's notes on The war of art and The meaning of life.
http://brianjohnson.me/philosophersnotes/
http://www.copyblogger.com/creativity-killers/
https://www.americanexpress.com/us/small-business/openforum/articles/8-ways-highly-successful-people-overcome-self-doubt/
http://gailbrenner.com/2014/01/is-your-comfort-zone-really-that-comfortable/
http://www.mollygordon.com/overcome-fears-anxiety/maintaining-homeostasis.html
http://www.stevenpressfield.com/2013/11/resistance-and-self-loathing/
http://www.stevenpressfield.com/the-war-of-art/#book-top
http://jamesclear.com/deliberate-practice
http://jamesclear.com/required-for-success
http://jamesclear.com/professionals-and-amateurs
http://forbesindia.com/article/recliner/ar-rahman-and-the-art-of-focus/32584/0
(AR Rahman on focus).
http://www.thehindu.com/features/friday-review/ar-rahman-story-behind-jai-ho/article6937113.ece
It's interesting how he pays attention to every detail.
“The way he amalgamates South Indian sounds with Western classical music is something special. Dholak and pakhawaj sound different in his music. The way he hears the sounds around him is unique.
“Rahman is somewhat like a powerful radio tuned in to different corners of the world. He’s aware of every musician, every recording artist, every trend, every instrument. So when he composes, he draws on this knowledge base and analytical acumen and he also assembles exactly the right team for each piece he creates, down to even such minutiae as getting the right diction for a particular song, the dialect, the flavour,” .
It was also interesting to learn that while travelling he watches films in the silent mode, imagining the soundtrack rather than letting it play.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Y5AoZb4eGQ
(Harsha Bhogle's awesome IIM speech).
and also
https://enjoyingyourkids.wordpress.com/2015/02/26/i-am-lucky-to-be-a-stay-at-home-mom-sahm/
(Who decides which is most worthy and important?)
I also read about some books:
Buddha's Brain: The Practical Neuroscience of Happiness, Love, and Wisdom
Hardwiring Happiness.
Do the work
The war of art.
And some pdfs from Dr Rick Hanson's page.
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/10/17/how-tiny-joyful-moments-c_n_4108363.html?ir=India
http://greatergood.berkeley.edu/resources/slide_presentations
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